I’m Ba-ack :)

Well, hello again.

I know it’s been quite a while and I have been completely MIA for a bit. I want to apologise for ghosting, and I want to explain why.

So, to start, I injured my right arm (my dominant arm) back in January. It’s still not doing well. That’s what halted everything that I’ve been working on. I have not been able to keep going on writing “Evander”. I’ve been focusing on the writing assignments I have for school because they don’t require a paper and pen. I do realize that writing my novel probably doesn’t sound like it would require that either, but I have a very specific process when I write. I do everything with paper and pen before I type it up, that way I have a hard copy in my own handwriting. It makes me feel more original I guess. Everything is so technological these days I like to unplug when I write. Plus it kills my eyes to stare at a screen so long. I also, had every intention of continuing with writing blog posts and doing all my social media things, but life had other plans.

I have been struggling very hard with hormone imbalances, infertility issues, and other medical problems with doctors. I don’t want to get into a whole lot of personal detail about everything so I will leave it at that.

This has been a huge struggle for me mentally and emotionally and I just haven’t been in a writing/sharing mood. I was very focused on school and work and life that I’ve barely been able to keep my head above water.

I ended up changing school around so I’m no longer pursuing photography. It was just starting to get too difficult to pay for the equipment, and too taxing on my mind to attend some of the classes that were more about the technical side of things instead of actually learning about taking pictures and how to edit them to make them look professional. I ended up choosing to drop that associates degree and I added poetry as my focus to my creative writing degree. I also recently made the decision to switch from half-time to full-time, so, that’s exciting.

My best friend went through some things that have landed her living with my husband and I for the foreseeable future (not that I’m unhappy about it), and she also has a lot of medical issues.

This has put a lot of stress on my husband and I and now my friend (our friend; they get along great). So, I’ve been a little preoccupied and dealing with that. Recently, I’ve been getting the urge to share more. To put myself out there and open up to all of you. Today I just decided I’m not going to wait anymore. I’m going to start sharing again, maybe not stuff about my book, (things have really halted with that) but other writings and things that I’ve done. My inspiration for them. Just anything that will keep me writing and engaged with you all.

I was just fired today (for totally unfair reasons) so I’m kind of in an “eff it” mood! I’ve been in some poetry workshop classes (I’m currently in one right now too) and that’s how I’ve been dealing with all this crazy. I want to let you guys in on this creativity river that’s going on right now and I want to share more, so I’m going to. You guys are gonna come along on this crazy ride we call life (at least I hope). So, strap in. I’m back y’all!

Love you, Shayders ❤

-Rashell